Is this how we say goodbye?
I want to make a difference in the world; want to change our justice system so that getting parole doesn’t mean pleading guilty to a crime you didn’t commit
I want to travel and experience//feel things and cultures that make me question my interpretation of reality.
I want to be an example for empowering my closest friends
And women that have never met me
I wonder how moments can become years and the people you once thought you loved are now just strangers from your past. It’s so sad to me. That knowing someone doesn’t mean you always will or that there is even some connection binding you to each other past that one moment shared
Take a picture so you won’t forget. Click.
Moving through time, watching friendships evaporate as slowly as they were formed
I want to know how to let go without having the guilt/regret/hope kill part of me
I want to live near water
I want to make a lot of money so I
can take my daughters to live theater
I want to end up with someone I love, doing something that I love—
Whether its a hip happening in laidback north county
Or a organic movement in san fran or floating on a rooftop next to New York’s high line…
or somewhere else that has already captured part of my heart
Or maybe someplace that has yet to meet it
And I’ll introduce myself as Kate and it in that moment everything will change
I’m scared.
Of the truth.
Although that’s all I’ve ever asked from you, I can’t bring myself to ask myself for the same.
But I feel like this is different…
For is withholding the truth the same as a lie? Am I a hypocritical beggar?
Could this time be different?
I wish this time would be different but I have learned to force myself to believe that it will only be the same.
For it will.
Truth is you haunt my dreams and my reality.
Truth is I’m tired of denying it.
Truth is I think I love you or at least used to but truth is I’m too scared to do anything about it because
the truth is
I am scared of the truth
Regrets collect like old friends
Here to relive your darkest moments
I can see no way, I can see no way
And all of the ghouls come out to play
